Anxiety

“Anxiety”

By Derek Felix

Every day carries a special meaning

Even when we are retreating

Sometimes, it happens to the best of us

The key is to not make a fuss

Anxiety can drive you insane

Mental health can be such a drain

Don’t lose all hope

Use your outlets to cope

You can feel trapped inside

Fight it and battle outside

Don’t let it get you down

Think of the ocean sound that’s around

Keep a positive outlook towards things

That approach will keep you from having broken wings

Think of someone special that’s kind

I promise that’ll help ease your mind

What If

“What If”

By Derek Felix

Sometimes, I find myself in deep thought about you

Wondering if it’s just a movie or it’s really true

You’ve had that effect on me throughout the year

Even now, as I struggle, you give me the strength not to disappear

We’ve had some nice words for each other

No matter what, you’ll never be just another

My birthday is coming up on Friday

I’ll tell you tomorrow to see what you’ll say

I don’t expect anything over the top like the card I got you

Just a thoughtful birthday wish will do

You’re one of those authentic people who are sweet

That’s why I consider our friendship a treat

What if it blossomed into more

What if we could chill by the shore

Would you meet me halfway to a wonderful place

All so I could politely tell you how much I love your cute face

You’re a diamond in this lonesome town

Someone special who deserves a crown

I knew I had a thing for you the first time we met

It was the way you treated me that I’ll never forget

That was a time when I wasn’t myself

As time went on, you inspired me to better health

Whenever we talk, all the distractions go away

You have a magic sparkle that lights up my day

I want to do more than where I am right now

Just seeing you will cheer me up somehow

What if we took the time

What if we enjoyed the sunshine

“A True Star”

“A True Star”

By Derek F

The first time our eyes met, I knew from the start

You were pleasant and cool like the autumn wind

Maybe it was your way of seeing the sad side of me

The way you smiled wasn’t lost on me that day

Even as I drifted and died during that time, I always felt I’d see you again

You saw me at my lowest point when I was broken

But sometimes, things are understood during such moments

The next time you saw me, you were so kind

It was then that I realized special people still exist

As I got more comfortable, I started to talk to you

You were so nice and handled things with grace

It really helped me rediscover who I truly am

As the weather changed, so did my whole outlook

It was more positive and understanding of things

You never changed the unique person you are

You are warm like the sun on a beautiful day

A true star

Shines brightly

A true star

Shines nightly

The spotlight is never too big for you at all

That’s why I believe in you and think you’ll be a success

Somehow, you taught me so much in our little chats

That winning smile and mesmerizing style comes through

I never thought I’d ever feel the way I do about you

That someone who really gets it can make me see better days

Even in my latest struggle, I no longer look behind

Instead, I look forward and appreciate so much more

That one day, I told you what you meant wasn’t even hard

Had it been another time, I wouldn’t have said anything

In that moment, you deserved to hear the truth

I respect who you are and enjoy speaking with you

When I gave you the card, you thanked me for it

Even though I asked what you thought later, I didn’t want to make a big deal

It was the thought that counts, which I nicely expressed

You can light up even the darkest days like the full moon

A true star

Is always clever

A true star

Is now and forever

“The Cool Chick”

“The Cool Chick”

By Derek F

Editor’s Note: Written a while ago about someone special who changed my outlook.

You were just the cool chick

I met by accident

Things fell into place where I felt we were floating in space

All up in the atmosphere

Going off on a tangent so magnificent

Enjoying the real fantasy

We all see as I admired your pretty face

Your magnified image had me from day one

You were the special one

You offered words of wisdom when I needed it in tough times

That woke me up from a long nap

To remember what I want to become

Over time, the energy and motivation came back

Along with the rhythm and funky ass rhymes

Now, I know who I am once again

You made it all come back through your positive message

I started seeing a brighter picture

My photographic memory saw a true work of art

Dancing in the spotlight and creating quite a vision

Now, all I can see are the words in my head

Pure inspiration to write a dope track

There’s not a day that goes by that I’m reminded of you

Making me wish for hugging and kissing

Let’s get together one of these nights and just chill real late

We’ll watch the sunset and moonrise

As I recite lyrics that spark your electrifying eyes

When we first met, I didn’t think much

But maybe it was just fate

I think you’re dynamite who lit the fireworks that didn’t tell lies

I saw you when you were the cool chick

When I was down, we met by chance

I never realized how I’d react

Only that I was mesmerized by your beauty

It all felt like a dream

The good kind for once that I’d bring to the dance

Now, I don’t know how to act

There’s things I’d like to tell you, which you truly deserve

You’re the essence of a pleasant person, whose star shines brightly

Between those fly brown locks and your golden eyes, I feel like I touched the sky

I’m sitting outside studying the moon where I see you nightly

You got me shook like a slick crook

I’m George Clooney, chasing J-Lo

In out of sight wondering why

A smooth criminal who decided to take a timeout from our game

Because, like you said once, ‘Life’s a gamble’

Let’s live dangerously on the edge

So, I chase you even when the stakes are high

I’m so close, I can almost taste you

I’ll risk it because you’re worth it

Even if you take me to the ledge

Because deep down, you’re the cool chick

Who can paint pictures never ever seen before

No matter what, you can light up each day with that winning smile

You’re all the colors of a rainbow after a storm, which is part of your folklore

I haven’t forgotten that fly outfit

From that first time, you were the cool chick

Who’s always in style with a smile

So let’s chill for a while

“Love”

“Love”

By Derek Felix AKA DFlex

The first time we met

You caught my attention by your stylish outfit

I was down, but suddenly awake

You smiled, and it had an effect on me

For a while, I struggled with my anxiety

But when I saw you again, your enthusiasm caught me by surprise

You hardly knew me, but that’s not how it felt

From that moment on, I thought you were special

When I visited more often, you proved me right

I was mesmerized by your beauty and elegance

You had a presence that stood out

It’s no wonder I treated you differently

We always greeted each other cordially

I never saw you as just some person, but something more

You respected that by your cool response

Your warmth could be felt all around

I truly cared about you, and it showed

The nice thing is that you did the same for me, too

The chemistry we had could definitely be felt

I always left thinking the same thing

You’re amazing and unique like a crown jewel

A shining light who exists in a dark world

Your flair and electricity are unmatched

Reach for the sky and go high

You deserve that and so much more

I don’t know what will happen in the coming days

But I want you to know that I’ll never forget you

I hope we meet again soon

I’ll tell you everything in my heart

You’re the kind of person that is rare

Someone who makes others feel better about themselves

You’ll always be a forever shining star who I love

“Wonder”

“Wonder”

By Derek Felix AKA DFlex

It’s late, and I’m up thinking

How did it all start

Was I asleep when you saw me

I had lost my way

Something changed on that fateful day

I didn’t know it at the time

I was left breathless without much to say

Just a look gave me a reason to rhyme

I knew I’d be back at some point

I didn’t know when but knew why

It was a while before I saw you again

You looked excited to see me and caught me by surprise

It wasn’t until then that I felt alive

I began to like you and wonder

You made me feel like someone

I hadn’t thought that way in forever

Maybe it was your shining light

Or the way you looked at me

I started to ask how you were

You always responded quite well

I never looked at you like a number

But rather, as a dedicated person

Someone who wasn’t only a pretty face

A unique quality that I noticed almost immediately

You aren’t like other girls

There’s a cool confidence and flair

That makes for a sunny disposition

With the personality to match

That’s what created wonder

Or a certain astonishment

It’s more than just finding you attractive

The way you handle yourself is admirable

Not everyone can captivate like the stars at night

Or a perfect sunset or picturesque rainbow in the sky

You could be anything your heart desires

If I could tell you, I’d say pursue your dreams

You’re always going to be that full moon

That I can’t take my eyes off

Except you’re real and not just a postcard

You truly are a work of art

If I could draw you, I wouldn’t change a thing

From your head to your toes, you’re special

I wish I could tell you in the most polite way possible

You deserve that kind of attention

I might still be up full of wonder

It’s because you are a gem

Someone who has a great smile

Somebody who won’t be just another girl I once knew

“A Birthday Wish”

Dedicated to the one and only Amanda. ✨️

“A Birthday Wish”

By Derek Felix AKA DFlex

There once was this sweet girl

Who shined the brightest of them all

Who could fly high in an electrifying whirl

Whose wonderful smile always stood tall

She had a positive outlook on things

And worked hard to achieve her goals

It was easy to admire the spread of her wings

Due to a passion that landed her roles

She deserved the opportunity to be the best

While dancing and grooving to the magnetic beat

There she went traveling east to west

All by teaching students with her fancy feet

It’s her day to shine like a rhythm or rhyme

It’s your birthday party on this hot summer day

May it treat you well as you continue to climb

Your star has always stood out no matter what day

Here’s a birthday wish

For someone special

Here’s a birthday wish

For a shining star who’s reached a new level

May it be as awesome as you are

I know you’ll continue to go far

Happy Birthday to you boo

Happy Birthday to you, let it all ring true

May all of your dreams come true

You’ll do well, that I always knew

A birthday wish to someone unique

You’ll always be le magnifique

“End The Struggle”

“End The Struggle”

By Derek Felix AKA DFlex

I look around and what do I see

Nothing but darkness and mystery

Gray skies overlook my place

Symbolizing how lost I am in space

I’d give anything for just a ray of light

One moment of hope to make things right

The pain can sometimes be too much to bare

If only I could end the struggle and erase the fear

Time seems to pass without much going on

It’s no wonder I don’t even notice the dawn

Each day is filled with lots of gray

It’s like seeing your shadow on Groundhog Day

As day gives way to night in the pitch dark

I study the moon and look for a spark

There must be a way to find an escape

And end the struggle by putting on my Batman cape

Even on my birthday, I feel a sudden chill

Only to picture you if looks could kill

You’re the best kind of person I know

Someone unique with lots of flow and glow

You can rescue me from this lonely place

Your pretty smile would brighten my face

Take me away to your palace of love

Finally to end the struggle into an angelic place above

I’d finally be free of the everlasting storms

On this new day, I am finally reborn

Exploring your new land in all of its glory

Making for a happier and much better story

You can make a difference just by your kind words

Inspiring me to reach up for once and discover new things

I can’t thank you enough for the sweetness on this special day

Only to say thank you as I end the struggle and appreciate today