Some songs just captivate us. It can be as simple as the words and how they’re delivered. But music is more than that. There’s the unique sound that helps create the images we see in our minds. The cool combination can provide us with thought provoking songs like “The Great Below,” by Nine Inch Nails.
I’ve often said that the innovative mind of Trent Reznor is different than most artists. That’s because he is the genius behind Nine Inch Nails. He composes the music we hear that can create a death defying sound unlike other acts. He’s different than most. The vision he has along with the audio can turn his works into art. And what is art? There are all kinds of forms. From a beautiful painting to a postcard to the music we listen to and enjoy. Or even poetry that allows us to free our minds and go to a different place and see beyond.
Maybe that’s what makes Trent Reznor so cool. He isn’t other mainstream artists who get all the accolades by being front and center. He’s complex. From the experience of addiction to feelings of suicide, he lets you in. That appeals to me and many other people who battle mental health issues such as anxiety and depression. The lyrics take on a special meaning. They hit home with his devoted fans who understand the complex genius.
And I descend from grace
In arms of under tow
I will take my place
In the great below
What separates Reznor from others is his willingness to delve deeper into that dark hole many of us have faced. It isn’t pretty. It’s like a dark pit that blocks you from the outside, damaging your soul. An escape isn’t easy. I’ve experienced it. Sometimes, I wonder why. Why are there people like us that suffer? Life isn’t always fair. It deals you curveballs. I often use music as my escape. I find that that along with my writing helps me cope. Or simply talking about it to friends who understand the pain. I’m thankful for them.
How many songs does NIN have that address the serious issues of depression? The empty feeling of numbness that you can’t explain. It comes and goes. I’ve been out with friends from my old job at bars and felt a million miles away from them. The emptiness doesn’t disappear. You wish it would fade away. I think it’s me questioning why things are not better. Why life is complicated. Why happiness is so hard to achieve. Peace and salvation are all I want. I think that’s why I identify with Trent. His songs have that and the mesmerizing sounds plus the haunting delivery of the lyrics works.
Even with your troubles, you can be a beautiful soul. I’m kind, unselfish with a big heart. I am sarcastic and random. I like to rhyme and write poetry. My last work was dedicated to a good friend I love. Caring about someone is the best thing you can do. Being able to express oneself and describe your feelings is meaningful. I could probably write a poem if I felt like it now. But the mood must be right. When the heavy rain comes from Tropical Storm Ida, figure I’ll use the darkness and flooding rain as my motivation.
I can still feel you
Even so far away
Those words echo. We’ve all had moments where we knew someone special who meant so much that we lost touch with. I’m here to say that it’s never too late to reconnect. I recently have with a few friends and might even meet up with one to watch some high school football. If you want it, you can achieve it.
A true friendship never ends. They last forever. Just like a Nine Inch Nails song.
I’ve been thinking a lot about our brave Marines who lost their lives along with the many innocent people in Afghanistan who were injured by the evil Taliban that’s back in power. It shouldn’t have happened. What a horrible screw-up by the current administration. You can’t bargain with evil people who don’t care about human lives.
It’s obviously a very sad situation. RIP 💜 🙏 🕊 go out to the American families of our military. I don’t understand how President Biden could’ve miscalculated so badly. Even if I didn’t vote for him or former President Trump, I want what’s best for the future of our country. Right now, the present doesn’t look so promising. A lousy foreign policy combined with a confusing vaccine mandate that restricts people’s rights to choice aren’t helping matters.
Neither is the hypocritical open border policy that has allowed the area of Texas to be overflowing with illegal immigrants. While legal citizens and residents must adhere in some extreme cases to strict enforcement that includes the very controversial Vaccine Passports introduced by our do nothing Mayor, illegals seem to have more rights than us. They aren’t even tested for Covid as cases soar due to the Delta variant. The senselessness will create similar protests that are taking place overseas.
How can I make sense of this? By wondering when it became socially acceptable to only allow fully vaccinated people into public events such as concerts and the upcoming U.S. Open that begins Monday in Flushing, Queens. This is over the top and infringes on human rights. I don’t see what the issue is with having unvaccinated pass a PCR test. That goes double for emergency medical workers and public school teachers, who have become pawns in a dangerous game thanks to overly controlling progressive states like New York that aren’t giving those valued employees any option. Forcing people to take a jab when they’re uncomfortable putting it into their bodies or due to underlying medical conditions is inhuman. One size doesn’t fit all.
Editor’s Note: I’m fully vaccinated. However, I believe in the right of choice. It’s basic human rights.
I’d like to swing back at the joke of an administration that allowed our Marines to die due to a major screw-up. This is what was elected. 81 million. Sure. In Fantasy Land. We already are seeing some of those Biden supporters turn. Bill Maher voiced his concern over having to have booster shots after already taking a two-part vaccination. When is enough ENOUGH? They act like people haven’t had adverse reactions. Some have even died. You think Dr. Fraudci really cares. He’s too busy changing the rules on masks from one month to the next.
I can see using a mask for a crowded place indoors. But even now with fully vaccinated people testing positive, we don’t know much about the Delta variant. Speaking of which, I noticed Delta Airlines is now fining any unvaccinated employees $200. That’s so tolerant and accepting. What a great company that must be to work for. Throwing little kids with their parents off a flight and now penalizing their own dedicated workers. I’d say Delta Airlines is the real Delta variant.
The last year and a half has taught me that there are a lot of dishonest and ugly people who aren’t accepting of other opinions. These are the kind of brainwashed tools who were school bullies. Social outcasts with nothing better to do with their useless lives. Ditto for social media giants that censor anyone with a different opinion against the machine. You aren’t fooling anybody. Maybe they should be forced to spend a month in North Korea or China where the coronavirus originated from.
Nobody needs to be told what to do. We can think for ourselves. If you use caution and good judgment, that should suffice. I waited until the summer to get the two shots. I never got sick. But I dealt with my anxiety and mental health which took a hit since this started. Mental Health has all but been ignored by these good doctors and mad scientists. They’re too preoccupied keeping us living in fear. Unless you’re a celebrity star athlete like Naomi Osaka, they don’t care. It’s a double standard.
Hollywood celebrities are the last people anyone should listen to. Most are out of touch with reality and too arrogant and blind to notice what’s real and what isn’t in their fake world. It’s up to us to end this civil war on democracy.
We The People must stand up to the bureaucracy that wants full control over us like a socialist country. They don’t want independent people to think for themselves. They’re the problem. It’s time to fight back. Let our voices be heard.
Jim Valvano was the best of us when facing the toughest challenge of his life. He’s an example of courage and strength whose legacy lives on.
Sometimes, we go through tough times. It’s the challenging part of life. It can be a mental grind. Especially if you overthink things. That’s the anxiety talking. It can cause roadblocks for unknown reasons.
I have to admit since the pandemic started, I’ve found it harder to do things I like to do. It’s not that I don’t want to. There’s just some hesitation that may as well be a wall. It’s breaking through it that must be done to finally free ourselves.
Fear is our greatest enemy. It can make you think irrationally. I look back at some of the things I did and wonder how. I drove all the way to ESPN in Bristol, Connecticut for a job interview. The two and a half hour trip wasn’t that bad. But after the interview for a hockey research position that I got, coming home was nerve racking.
It was dark by 6 PM when I stopped to grab a drink and snack. Then, I accidentally took the Merritt Parkway because the signs said New York. Thankfully, it all worked out. I made it back okay. That was the start of a new journey.
A year later, I moved into an apartment in Bristol and returned on New Year’s Eve. My Dad helped me with the move. When he was getting ready to leave, he got emotional and shed tears as he hugged me. I was 25 at the time and just as nervous. When he left for the trip home, I cried. I knew how hard a moment that was. It was something I had to do. I had guts.
We have to take chances. If we don’t, we’re left wondering what could’ve been. My anxiety definitely kicked in when I realized it was time to return home on Halloween. Of course, Dad was there for me with the move back. Another tough experience. I left because I couldn’t get a full-time gig. Most importantly, my brother needed me. He was going through his own struggles and I realized it one night when we met up in the city. He gave me a bear hug. It was emotional. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for him. He’s a great person.
It was after I returned that I started having issues. Whether it be due to insomnia back at my old job in Jersey City, or getting depressed due to that place relocating to Bristol, CT, I definitely wasn’t the same. There also was a difficult home situation due to my brother, who needed more help to get better. I’m happy to say I was there for him when he needed me most. Family comes before anything.
It’s been a long time since those melancholy moments that left me feeling down. The good part is we got through it. Justin is such a strong person. He’s the nicest and most caring and unselfish person I know. I’m the older one. But I can learn a lot from how he handles himself. The situation isn’t easy, but he is much better. When I think back to where he was, I’m amazed at the transformation. Justin will always be my best friend. Of course, we both have best friends too who are always there for us. I consider those close part of your Inner Circle. They’re examples of shining ✨ stars 🌟.
I didn’t really get serious about my anxiety and depression until Fall 2009. It was following a memorable experience at Woodstock 40. A great weekend even though I couldn’t sleep and had to deal with the summer heat and humidity. Thank God for water and ice cream. I managed. But I knew I needed to change moving forward.
When we returned home, I got evaluated and hooked up with a good outpatient center that had a nice doctor. I remember discovering by accident that I suffer from Panic Disorder. I was volunteering at a place. I read the symptoms and was startled. The thing about anxiety is it can just come out of nowhere. Panic attacks are the worst. While I’ve gotten better at handling them through experience, it’s never fun. Picture being trapped in a dark cave with nowhere to go. That’s how I would describe it.
A year after therapy sessions with the right prescribed medication, I finally felt good enough to go back to work. I worked in an office doing customer service while making commission on leads. Somehow, I lasted almost seven full years. But there were moments I struggled due to my mental health. I am thankful I had such understanding bosses. It’s been a few years since, but it was an overall good experience. I made friends who I still stay in touch with. I hope one day soon, I can meet up with a few who I have nothing but love for. The quality people I met was the best part of that job.
Since then, I’ve done substitute teaching. That was interesting. I taught mostly special education in a nice school. It was kids with autism. I discovered how special they were and receptive. I got along with most of the staff. It had a real family oriented environment which was beneficial. I believe that’s important. Of course, you had some talkative female paras who you had to watch. I didn’t eat lunch much in that room. Maybe I knew better. I was mostly quiet and ate in the main school which was more to my liking. As much as I enjoyed that experience, by the end of the year, I was mentally exhausted. I think it was due to my anxiety. That along with my Mom became too much. She worked in the system. But drove me nuts at times despite helping me. You never want parents so involved in your job when they’re retired. I was glad for a break.
The plan was to take six education credits to continue subbing. I enrolled for two online courses. Both were good and helped give me new perspective on schooling. Unfortunately, one course wasn’t considered education. It was all about schools and I did well in it like I had the other course. But it was listed under Sociology. When it was rejected, I grew frustrated with the NYCDOE. They are very strict with subs. Maybe too much so. All it did was stress me out. I lost interest due to the rules. Who wanted to take another course? I should’ve but between the situation and my Mom, I wasn’t happy. It didn’t seem fair. Maybe it was the anxiety talking. I didn’t even pass an exam that could’ve helped give me credits. It was hard. No wonder I lost interest.
I look back at that year with disappointment. I had wanted to do more regular subbing. I got experience in one school teaching sixth graders. They were complimentary. Supposedly, I was the best sub they had. Maybe it was my good nature. How I related well to kids. But I also was tough. I made sure they did their assignments. When I think about it, it was a good experience. Now, those kids are in high school. Hard to believe.
Part of that assignment was being put in a suspension room with the bad kids. These weren’t students. They were deviants who had no place in the school system. One time, it got so bad that a seventh grader challenged me to a fight. I shrugged it off. They are troublemakers who come from bad homes. Kids that don’t want to be in school. Why even have a suspension room? It allows them to get away with what they want and not do any productive work. If there’s one criticism of the current system, it’s this laissez-faire approach to uncooperative students. I have a hard time calling them that. The words that come out of their mouth are from the gutter. My suggestion is stick such disobedient kids in a special place for their behavior. They don’t belong in the public school system.
Having done plenty of blogging the past few years, I wonder with how things are currently how teachers and paras feel. Of course, I’m referring to the vaccine being forced on the very people who sacrifice so much during a school year to make things work. If you only knew what they have to deal with, you’d come to the conclusion they’re miracle workers. There’s so much on their plate that it defies logic. Mandating the shot for every worker in the school system is unfair. Not everyone is comfortable putting that into their body. The FDA rushed to approve the Pfizer shot which I got. The negative reaction to it should be cause for concern. So should the do nothing Mayor’s total ignorance that there are good people like my friend who have underlying medical conditions. That’s why some are hesitant to get vaccinated. Not everyone is the same. And not every person believes in the science. That includes a close personal friend.
Personally, I think mandating the shot is unhealthy and creates further division. They basically are blaming the unvaccinated for the problems with increased cases. Meanwhile, it’s fully vaccinated people who are testing positive. So, what does that say exactly? A vaccine shouldn’t be politicized. But here we are. A year and a half of frustration due to government control and the media using scare tactics.
Let’s just say all of this made me pause. I haven’t done enough. Now, a change in diet and a return to the gym will be an uphill climb. I’ll go about it slowly and try to build back up gradually. There’s also the return of the mask mandate next month. Plus businesses forcing people to show proof of being fully vaccinated. Another hair-raising brain scheme of Mayor Idiot thanks to Vaccine Passports. Something that violates consistutional rights and causes more grief in a divided country. I thought President Biden was gonna bring it together. The puppet in chief is too confused not knowing how to handle Afghanistan where the Taliban is back in power. My news flash showed an explosion near an airport before. How awful. I wish for the safety of all people including stranded Americans including our soldiers and those from Afghanistan, who are victims.
There’s so much craziness in this world. You have protests against tyranny in England, Paris and Australia where they lockdown for any positives. They have to understand that you’re not gonna defeat Covid. It’ll be around. How about this for a concept. Let people live their lives without having to turn around. New York State is a mess. They want to restrict people and hurt businesses while crime remains way up due to the progressive court system that lets dangerous criminals back out on the streets with long rap sheets. Where’s the logic? Hospital workers are the true heroes of the pandemic, but some are being let go due to not complying with the ridiculous mandate. Your body, your choice.
As for where I currently am, I’m not ready to throw in the towel. I think that’s been pretty obvious in this post. I want to get back in shape and change my diet. Go more green with higher protein and less carbs. Do what I can when I go to the gym. It’ll be a process. It’s easy to blame myself for this. But that’s a waste of negative energy. And I can’t be negative. I must fight for myself and do better.
Jim Valvano and Derreck Whittenburg hug after winning the 1983 National Championship for North Carolina State.
The legendary former North Carolina State championship college basketball coach Jim Valvano said it best in his courageous fight against cancer at the memorable ESPY’s speech.
“Don’t Ever Give Up!”
In his most trying time as he was losing his battle to the terrible disease, he showed such courage and strength. That speech is replayed on ESPN every year during the Coaches versus Cancer week when they raise awareness. I’ve donated to the Jimmy V Fund. A great cause for Cancer research. I’m reminded of why Valvano was so universally loved even by former peers like Mike Krzyzewski. Ironically, he became a close friend of Valvano when he visited him in the hospital at Duke University School of Medicine. When they coached against each other, they were total opposites. Valvano the funny talker with the classic New York personality coming from a big Italian family. Coach K more of a serious coach who turned Duke into a powerhouse. Fate brought them together.
On April 28, 1993, Jim Valvano lost his battle to cancer. The former coach who led the underdog North Carolina State Wolfpack to a national championship in 1983 was 47. Only 10 years removed from a miraculous run for the ages with it winding up in the biggest upset over powerful Houston on a Lorenzo Charles dunk at the buzzer. If you haven’t watched the wonderful 30 For 30 documentary Survive And Advance, I highly recommend it. It’s a tale about a positive coach who motivated his team to defy the odds and pull games out against giants such as Sidney Green, Ralph Sampson and Hakeem Olajuwon. Led by scrappy guard Derreck Whittenburg, NC State shocked the world. It’s still called the upset of the century.
Jimmy Valvano is a tale in courage. He made his famous ESPY speech two months before he died. Close friend Dick Vitale helped him up to the stage. The amazing thing is once he was up there, he was on. No countdown for when his speech was supposed to end was gonna stop him. He sarcastically joked about the production cue cards reminding him how much time was left, drawing laughter. He had such a great sense of humor. One part of the speech I really loved is when he talked about how cancer can take away his physical abilities, but it can’t take away his heart, mind and soul. It was truly a special moment.
I use Jimmy V because he was the best of us. He knew his time was short. Seeing him brought back for a 10-Year NC State Wolfpack ’83 Championship reunion moved me to tears. That’s what made this ESPN documentary so special. He always talked about being able to laugh, think and be moved to tears. If you could have those three things happen, that’s a whole day. The Jimmy V Classic is featured every year in December. It’s a doubleheader of college hoops at Madison Square Garden. A special time to remind us of how many have it worse. I’ll donate to the worthy cause.
St. Jude Hospital For Children is a cause I donate to. Helping sick kids is something that we all should do. These are good kids who fight daily battles. Seeing the videos hurts. They’re too adorable and yet have such great human qualities remaining positive despite the tough hand they’ve been dealt. Have a heart ❤.
I know I wrote a lot in this post. I covered plenty. It’s because I had a lot on my mind. Mostly as a reminder that I can achieve by improving my quality of life. I’ve done it before. We all have flaws and experience ups and downs. It’s about how we respond to the challenge moving forward. That’s what Jim Valvano taught me.
A sprawling Henrik Lundqvist makes an incredible save on Thomas Vanek in Game Six of the 2014 Eastern Conference Final the Rangers won 1-0 over the Canadiens to reach the Stanley Cup Finals for the first time since 1994. AP Photo courtesy USA Today via Getty Images
When it comes to heroes, it all depends on how we define them. Like the classic David Bowie hit, “Heroes” above, it becomes about our perspective.
Who’s unique enough to be classified as a hero? It could be a Mom or Dad who raises their children right by teaching them right from wrong while supporting the kids in the best way possible. Having good parents who genuinely care means a lot. I’m proud to say we had that growing up. It’s why both my brother and myself are so unselfish and caring when it comes to our friends.
While it’s easy to identify a Mom or Dad as a hero who sets a great example, sometimes we search for others outside who are in the spotlight as people to follow. It could be a special athlete or great actor, actress or musician. Maybe it’s a creative artist who makes you think outside the box. Or even a former President from the past that stood for true values based on their unwavering principles even if it cost them their lives. There isn’t much of that kind of authenticity anymore.
When it comes to who we idolize, we want that famous person to measure up to our hopes and dreams. My favorite baseball player was Don Mattingly growing up. For 14 years, he was a model of excellence on and off the field. Even if his back hindered his ability to dominate the game the last five years, Donnie Baseball handled himself with class. Arguably the player of the 80’s, the Hitman went out well by hitting over .400 with a memorable home run in his final appearance at Yankee Stadium. In a gut wrenching ALDS they lost to Ken Griffey, Edgar Martinez and the Mariners in five games, Mattingly proved he could still perform when finally on the big stage in October. That meant plenty to me and other Yankee fans. I wish he could’ve hung around to win a championship. But he knew it was time to go.
In similar fashion on Friday, another classy star athlete who is beloved in NYC by Rangers fans decided it was time for a new chapter. After careful consideration due to workouts that still gave him inflammation in the chest after heart valve replacement surgery several months ago, Henrik Lundqvist announced his retirement from hockey back home in Sweden.
A special athlete who proved that it doesn’t matter where you get drafted (7th Round 205th Pick in 2000), all Lundqvist did was dominate back home for Frolunda before taking the NHL by storm to bring meaningful hockey back to the Rangers at Madison Square Garden. In 11 of his first 12 seasons, he won at least 30 games or more to set a standard. The Rangers also not coincidentally made the playoffs in all but one of those years. That’s how consistent and valuable he was. Without him, there are no three Conference Final appearances or pair of 3-1 second round comebacks. Ditto for the franchise’s first Stanley Cup Final in 20 years.
Lundqvist won Olympic gold for Sweden in the ’06 Winter Games in Torino. It was his huge stop on Olli Jokinen point blank that preserved Sweden’s 3-2 gold medal win over Finland. King Henrik as he’s affectionately known made the back page of the New York papers. It was pretty exciting for hockey. A 23-year old rookie who delivered for his home country on a huge stage. Even though he won 30 games his rookie year after taking over for Kevin Weekes, an injury prevented him from being effective against the Devils. The lopsided first round series was a sweep against adversary Martin Brodeur.
Who knew that eventually, Lundqvist would continue to pile up great numbers until he became the winningest goalie in Rangers franchise history? He wound up sixth on the all-time wins list with 459. His 64 shutouts also rank first among Blueshirt goalies as do his 61 postseason victories.
His best season came in ’11-12 when he won the Vezina by posting a 1.97 GAA and winning 39 games along with a .930 save percentage. The team advanced to the Eastern Conference Final before getting upset by Brodeur and the Devils in six games. It was a bitter pill to swallow. But that’s life. They certainly learned from it.
Two years later, the Rangers surprised many by making a run to their first Stanley Cup Final since ’94. After going seven to defeat the Flyers, Lundqvist saved his best hockey for the Pens. With the team falling behind three games to one following two awful home losses, he stopped 102 of the final 105 shots to lead the Blueshirts to its first 3-1 comeback to make the Conference Finals. His clutch saves in the final frantic 10 minutes of the chaotic third period at Pittsburgh was unbelievable. He was never better. The focus was remarkable.
It was in Game Six against a pesky Canadiens, who hung around without Carey Price, that Lundqvist made an incredible stop on Thomas Vanek with a few minutes left in the second period of a scoreless game. His acrobatic save was unreal. The crowd cheered loudly. Only a couple of minutes later, Dominic Moore scored the only goal needed to win the hard fought series off a nice setup from Brian Boyle. Lundqvist pitched a 1-0 shutout to set off a memorable celebration at MSG 20 years in the making. I still can’t believe we were there for it. It was pandemonium.
Even though they didn’t win the Cup against the Kings in a closely contested five-game series where sudden death at Staples Center doomed them, the Rangers played good enough to have gone further. If only they didn’t sit back in the third period of those games.
The end of the road was the following year. After winning the President’s Trophy and then rallying again from a 3-1 second round deficit that included dramatic goals against the Caps in both Game Five and Seven thanks to Ryan McDonagh and Derek Stepan, they again made the Conference Final Round. However, an unpredictable seven-game series saw the road team prevail in five of seven games including the crushing Game Seven that saw the Rangers unable to muster any offense in a 2-0 shutout elimination at MSG. The first ever home Game Seven they lost there. Even after it was revealed that most of their defensemen including McDonagh played with serious injuries, it still hurt.
Lundqvist still helped them make two more playoffs. Following a first round exit to eventual champ Pittsburgh, he won his final series by besting Price and the Canadiens in a six-game first round series. Both goalies were superb. But it was the older Lundqvist who prevailed to get his team to the second round of the 2017 NHL Playoffs against Ottawa.
That was a heartbreaking series. Certainly winnable, the Rangers blew some third period leads and lost a couple of crushers in sudden death which proved costly. Craig Anderson outplayed Lundqvist five years later and Jean-Gabriel Pageau became public enemy number one with a tying goal and overtime winner for a rare four goal game to give the Senators a stunning win. They would wrap it up in a depressing Game Six at The Garden.
It really was the end of an era. The Rangers and Lundqvist were never the same. They didn’t make the postseason in ’17-18. Unfortunately, Lundqvist started to decline behind a team defense that wasn’t as strong. Things fell apart. Injuries to key stalwarts Dan Girardi and Marc Staal hurt the blue line. McDonagh also wasn’t the same dominant player following injuries that included a separated shoulder, broken foot and concussion. Lundqvist also started to break down. That paved the way for Alex Georgiev to play more over the last couple of years.
Eventually, Igor Shesterkin supplanted Lundqvist in ’19-20 with Georgiev getting most of the starts as a backup in an uncomfortable three goalie situation. It definitely had to hurt Henrik’s feelings. He was as classy as they come. Despite it all, he never outwardly said anything negative. When he told reporters he’ll always be a Ranger no matter what, that summarized how much wearing the Blueshirt meant to him. The unwavering support from passionate fans, who loved him. He could’ve left after they traded McDonagh and J.T. Miller. Lundqvist preferred to remain a Ranger.
He wasn’t only a great hockey player who’s likely ticketed for the Hockey Hall Of Fame in Toronto. But the way he handled himself off the ice is what made him immensely popular. Between the GQ looks with his hair and unique style, and the way he handled questions whether it was win or lose, there’s a reason he became known as the King. The Henrik Lundqvist Foundation is a big part of the Garden Of Dreams that helps underprivileged kids who are struggling to survive. He recently donated $100,000 to help serve meals to hungry kids who needed it during the pandemic. This is a great person who gets it. It’s those less fortunate than him who deserve more than they have.
When I think about how well he handled his setback after signing with the Caps and holding out hope he could come back and play, it’s remarkable. It was first class all the way. While it’s fitting he never played another game which meant every single one was with the Rangers, his NHL career will be remembered fondly by the hockey community. It’s too bad he never got to have one more year and have closure. But with a wife and two daughters who attend school in the city, his family comes first.
I have so much admiration for how Henrik Lundqvist has handled himself. From the moment he came over and took Broadway by storm, he’s been top notch. For that reason, the song “Heroes” works well for him. He will be remembered fondly.
Wishing you luck in your next chapter. All hail the King 🤴.
Forever Friends: Tim and Me on Sunday night, August 15, 2021.
I still remember that day we met in the gym at the JCC down Arthur Kill. I was working on my jump shot on the second basketball court. Just a teenager working on his three-point shot from all the spots.
At that moment, I played for the travel basketball team. I wasn’t good enough to start. But always practiced hard and was a good perimeter shooter. Little did I know a kid like you would come up and challenge me to a three-point contest. It was best-of-ten from the right corner.
When it was over, we tied. We each made 3-for-10. Maybe it was a sign that we’d become good friends. That moment in the gym is one we both still remember well. I didn’t know you. You didn’t know me. By the end of our shooting contest, we knew each other by name. Tim, you would become one of my best friends. I just didn’t know it until later on when we got to work together at JCC Summer Day Camp in Family Park by Seaview.
As I grew up running track and playing tennis at Staten Island Tech, you went to Tottenville and tried out for the basketball team. Even though the dope didn’t play you, I knew they made a mistake. Every hot summer spent on the court when we weren’t busy with our maintenance job, you got better and better. It wasn’t just that quick first step. But you developed that two dribble step back that would’ve made Jimmy Chitwood of Hoosiers proud. I’m glad you got to represent our Staten Island JCC at the Maccabiah Games. It was well deserved.
I knew a good player when I saw one. I’m proud to say that you were better than I ever was. I might’ve been lanky with unlimited range. But you had a better repertoire. That’s what got you far. You could defend well due to your athleticism and quick instincts, which made you a complete player. We had some good runs beating the lifeguards at I.S.72.
Then, we eventually graduated and did the same to even kids on high school teams in the park by Great Kills. Those were fun times alongside our brother Jeremy. Better known to us as Lanky due to his array of low post moves and rebounding despite not being the tallest, he sure outworked everyone. No wonder Jeremy did well playing for the JCC. He had the drive to go with the game. You both did. I was along for the ride and enjoyed those games. Even if I became a better runner, who nobody could catch in those days. We still joke about it.
Of course, like most young kids in their late teens, we hung out at abandoned places and drank. If you looked the part, fake IDs came in handy. I could remember us chilling at Wolfe’s Pond Park before they fixed it up. It was only an abandoned parking lot with bushes and sand back then. We played lookout for any cops. There was another time we were on the North Shore with Jose and shared a forty of KrazyHorse. A strong drink that hasn’t been around in a long time. When I got home, I got pretty sick. Let’s just say the bathroom got a workout. I was pretty hungover the next day at work. All the cold showers didn’t help. As it turned out, a trip to Egger’s ice cream parlor for fresh banana and mint chip did the trick.
Coaches T and Lanky watching my “vertical leap.” Circa ’95 This will never not be funny.
When I reflect back on stories 25 years ago, it’s pretty hard to believe how well I can recall the details. But if you ask me what I did recently, I wouldn’t be able to tell you. My long-term memory remains intact. Short-term not as good. It’s funny, but I never smoked weed with you guys. I waited until my 30’s to try marijuana. I guess if I had one wish, it would be to have took some hits with you and Jeremy. I was a lot different when we were younger. Now, I understand that weed isn’t even close to as bad as the bs they sell with cigarettes or alcohol so many of us consume. I’m not afraid to admit that drinking became a problem for me 13 years ago. It could’ve cost me my life. I have never told you about it. I’m glad I survived that crazy night in Spring 2008. Thank God for my Dad and good luck getting across the Verrazano Bridge.
Sometimes, we have to learn valuable lessons the hard way. All this time later, I’m glad I learned from my mistake. By then, you were married with two great boys on the way. I’m proud to say how much your oldest, Mikey resembles you. He and Matthew are good kids who’ll do well. I’m glad you are moving off the Island and out of NYC to North Carolina with your wife of 15 years, Lisa and your family. As much as it stings, I know it’s the best decision. I also know if I ever want to go visit you when your house is ready, I can do so next year. I can’t see driving the eight to nine hours. But hopping a plane for an hour flight seems likely. I know I’ll do it. Not that I’ve ever flown much. Remember Cancun Spring Break? You know why. I didn’t realize how much anxiety I had. The flight home was a lot better.
It’s hard to believe that we’ve known each other three decades. I can’t even contemplate how. From that first chance meeting shooting three’s to all the classic times working and hanging out at JCC Summer Camp to going to St. John’s together and having Judaism class together. Or those wild and crazy nights spent on New Year’s Eve getting drunk. Remember when we stopped at that diner and I got sick outside? We can laugh about it now. Wow. Or Adam’s Sam Cassell paper machete doll he brought with him to Cancun, Mexico. The house parties in ’98. We shared so many memorable moments together. It was all positive. We really sucked the marrow out of life. Robin Williams in Dead Poet’s Society as Mr. Keating.
When it comes to our close friendship, nothing beats it. Of course, I wish I could’ve visited you more often. You had your own life and I had my own to take care of. You said a lot of good things that’ll help me make good decisions moving forward. I know I’ll better my situation and do what must be done. I appreciate you so much for always being there for me. It hasn’t been easy. But you are a rock. Our birthdays are a month apart. Like I told you on Sunday night in our goodbye that’ll last forever, you are my brother. I believe in keeping your Inner Circle tight. You are a shining star. We all are in life. That’s what makes us special.
T, here’s what I know. This isn’t the end. It’s the beginning of a new chapter. I know from experience. It’s funny how you refer to me as D. Wasn’t it Reape who gave me that nickname? Big D. I remember when Jeremy called me D Nice. At the time, I didn’t even know he meant a great old school rapper. That was some compliment. We sure were lucky to grow up in such a cool era for music. Especially rap. Tupac. Biggie. Nas. Dre and Snoop. Onyx. Wu-Tang. Mobb Deep. Beastie Boys. Cypress Hill. Queen Latifa. Da Brat. Aaliyah. Mary J. Eazy E. Ice Cube. NWA. Warren G. Brandy. Boyz II Men. Naughty By Nature. Rakim. Eric B. Run DMC. LL Cool J. Monica. DMX. RIP 💜 🙏
It was also the era of movies like Juice, Above The Rim, Boys In Da Hood, Menace II Society, Trespass, Ricochet. Yeah. We had a lot of good stuff to choose from. The 90’s were a great era. We even made trips to clothing outlets when that was the thing to do. That’s before sneakers became more expensive than a PS3 or mini laptop. Insanity. I will never pay that kind of money for shoes. I’ll find my Asics online on sale off eBay. Thank you very much. It’s crazy that I still have an old pair of Jordan’s I bought eight years ago. At least I kept them in good shape. I’ll never buy Nike again. They represent so much that is wrong. It’s sad.
It’s funny how things can change. Now, we look at Staten Island a lot differently than before when we grew up. It’s the Forgotten Borough that cares about its people and doesn’t turn its back like the other awful boroughs. Strange times. I don’t care about the city anymore. Brooklyn I still have some love for from scoring basketball games at Berkeley Carroll in Park Slope. I just wonder if it’s even remotely what it once was when I was last there seven years ago. Maybe I’ll visit for a hoops game in December. God willing.
You deserve all the good things that are coming to you. That your job is keeping you to work remote from your laptop is amazing. Your boss is a true shining 🌟. As you always will be T! I’m extremely proud of you. Our friendship is one that’ll last forever. See you soon.
Andrew McMahon is an ultra talented musician. Formerly the lead singer of Something Corporate who an acquaintance introduced me to in 2002 when I was living in Connecticut, he has considerable talent.
Possessing a great vocal range that can turn any song he’s done with Something Corporate, Jack’s Mannequin and currently in his solo project band Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness, it’s hard to believe how much he’s accomplished in his still young career. Astonishingly, he doesn’t turn 39 until September 3. That says a lot about the unique talent he is.
While he’s best known for his work with original act Something Corporate which he began as a teenager, McMahon has provided music fans with plenty of songs to choose from. There’s something special about a musician who can play the piano and sing as well as McMahon can. Sure. It’s been done before by rock legends Jerry Lee Lewis, Elton John, Stevie Wonder and Billy Joel. But it’s rare these days that you find a lead singer who can turn music into true art. It’s not like most bands make great usage if the piano. That makes it all the more fun.
It would be easy for me to choose a song from Something Corporate. “I Woke Up In A Car,” “Punk Rock Princess,” and “If You C Jordan” are very popular with fans of the original group. So is the notoriously requested, “Konstantine.” A song that feels like its own novel due to the length of 9:37. For that reason alone, McMahon hardly ever plays it in concert except for the poetic exception of November 11th (11:11). If you know the song, you’ll understand why due to the meaning.
I happen to think second project Jack’s Mannequin is very good. Whether it’s listening to “Dark Blue,” “I’m Ready” or “The Resolution,” their three albums produced some superb tracks. Perhaps the finest is “The Mixed Tape.” A song about an ex girlfriend who broke up with McMahon. At least that’s the theme. I like how it’s played and how every lyric he sings feels meaningful.
Where are you now
As I’m swimming through the stereo
Writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now
As the songs I rearrange
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of
Such lyrics make you feel the emotion and energy put into the song. Maybe that’s why I like it. I’m going to link up the original video and a very cool solo version McMahon did that to be honest, is exquisite. It’s just him, his piano and his voice. Poetry in motion.
Of course, the original has the more traditional sound that includes drums, bass and guitar. But the solo version is McMahon demonstrating just how gifted he is. I like how he introduces it and then plays the song.
McMahon and his band are touring this Fall. They’ll start at the House of Blues in Las Vegas and make stops along the West Coast before hitting the Midwest and eventually the East Coast. That’ll include Irving Plaza in NYC, The Stone Pony in Asbury Park and The Ritz in Raleigh, North Carolina. While Asbury Park is sold-out, there are still tickets available for Irving Plaza and The Ritz. Of course, the live show in the Big Apple costs more than the concert in North Carolina.
Given his unique style, I’d go and see McMahon perform with his solo band. That’s how good I think he is. To think that he formed Something Corporate at 16 and their debut album came out in 2000. It speaks volumes.
Don’t forget this is a man who successfully overcame acute lymphoblastic Leukemia. Good thing they caught it in the early stages. It’s hard to believe he was only 22 when it was discovered. Thanks to a stem cell transplant from his sister Katie McMahon, he made a full recovery. When one thinks about what he’s been through, this is a very courageous person who’s battled so much.
I consider McMahon one of the most talented current musicians. His piano playing is like Picasso. Combined with his strong vocals, you have a tremendous artist who still has time in front of him. It should be enjoyed.
We all can relate to the blues. Our moods fluctuate depending on what’s happening around us. It can go from high to low like a rollercoaster 🎢.
Emotions can change in an instant. One moment, you’re up while the next, you’re down. It kinda reminds me of a casino 🎰. Not that I’m a gambler. I haven’t been to Atlantic City in ages. If I did, I could see playing a few slot machines and roulette. That was fun back in the day.
Happy to sad to ecstatic and dramatic. Now, I sound like Knicks legend Walt Clyde Frazier during a game. I do like to rhyme a lot. I write poems. They can be recited. The lyrics are something I enjoy. Words can lighten up someone’s day. Or it can summarize your feelings.
It’s the same for the blues. I listen to blues songs. Sometimes, it’s very enjoyable. In a soothing sense, it relaxes us. That style of music can calm us down when things don’t seem so good. It happens. Maybe we don’t seem too proud or loud. That reminds me of a Jimi Hendrix cover of legendary folk singer Bob Dylan’s, “Like A Rolling Stone.”
The best blues will always be the legendary B.B. King. One of the greatest and most influential guitarists ever. He has been gone for some time, but never forgotten. Legends Never Die. Aside from King, I recently discovered Buddy Guy. Talk about a unique talent. He’s still around singing ’bout dem blues. As if you already knew. Here’s a song that I have taken a liking too.
Notice the classic style with which Guy plays with. It’s so smooth. The cool shredding which is really bending. Then he comes in with the words, “You’re damn right, I got the blues.” And goes on from there. This is a great classic sound that anyone can appreciate. It’s a bit more low-key. But you can feel the music in your soul by the solos, which I must say are amazing. The words always seem to fit in these songs. Excellent.
So, who else got the blues? I do from this insane summer heatwave. Plus I knew someone who passed away by succumbing to cancer. It was all too shocking. Then, our friend lost his uncle. Sad times. But we must be there for our friends and Inner Circle no matter what. That’s what makes us shining ✨ stars 🌟.
Here are a couple of other blues songs to enjoy. Take it easy. Keep hope alive. 💜
My favorite part is seeing Slash put his top hat on a visibly amused King, who clearly appreciated the warm gesture. That’s too cool. What would you expect from Slash? The great Derek Trucks is also part of it. Ronnie Wood, Susan Tedeschi and Mick Hucknall. This performance is from 2011 at The Royal Albert Hall. Good times.
Yeah. Jimi could play blues. “Red House” is superb. Singing about his baby who is gone. He hasn’t seen his baby in “99, one half days.” Any rare footage of Hendrix like this one from Santa Clara in ’69 is special.
Our freedom is at stake as long as we are being controlled by hypocritical politicians.
For almost a year and a half, our world has dramatically changed. Unfortunately, not for the better. Due to the COVID-19 pandemic and now the Delta Variant, nobody can ever feel good again.
We are no longer whole. Instead, we live in a divided America that’s been fractured even further since Joe Biden took over for Donald Trump. How is it possible that things have become worse since President Biden’s inauguration in which he promised to fix our country and bring it closer together?
The plain truth about electing politicians is they can’t ever keep their promises. Most of what they say is for show just to get elected. Unfortunately, there are too many voices on both sides who disrupt the democratic process. When Trump was in charge, he had complete opposition from everyone that it was obvious he’d be a one term President. Especially after he mishandled the pandemic. However, he was far from alone. Hint: NYC governor who will be forced out eventually.
Here in New York City, it’s run by incompetent people. We know them as Governor Cuomo and Mayor De Blasio. I’m not going to bother getting into how horrible a human being Cuomo is. He’s a disgrace. What I have to say about the do nothing Mayor is more important. In an effort to completely obliterate New York State, he’s decided to force people to get the controversial Vaccination Passport as proof to go anywhere. Whether it be restaurants, games, concerts, gyms or even work, it no longer feels like a democracy.
Instead, I’m left to wonder when the madness will end. They promised that if you got fully vaccinated, there would be a “return to normalcy.” They lied to the good people of our country again. Now because of a new variant which they’ve known about for a while, we are left in purgatory. I don’t know about anyone else. But I can’t take it anymore. From being ridiculed on the phone by our Mom over the new rules and masks becoming mandatory again next month, it’s a three ring circus. I can’t even have a normal conversation with my own mother, who supports all these unfair rules. It’s truly sad.
The worst part is I know I’m not alone. By controlling everything, the leadership is failing miserably. They don’t seem to understand that this is a free country. At least the last time I checked, it was. Maybe it’s only free for the many illegals they keep letting in at the border without even doing a good job protecting the legal citizens and residents. What if they’re carrying COVID or the Delta Variant we’ve heard so much about? I read earlier that they at least are going to start vaccinating people with the one shot Johnson and Johnson vaccine. That is the least efficacy of the three out there. I opted for the Pfizer vaccination at our local CVS. I waited. Now, I’m not sure if it matters.
If you can’t get back to a normal life without being forced to have Passports like we’re not from here, what’s the point? I know the opposition will say that being fully vaccinated helps decrease the likelihood of getting a serious case of COVID. However, we’re now learning that even vaccinated are testing positive. While deaths have mostly stayed down, cases are way up. The dramatic increase is a legit concern. Is it only due to the new variant, or are there other factors not being considered? Maybe they need to do more scientific research. The science. That’s all we’ve heard about for the past 17 months.
What if by Dr. Fauci saying that you could return to normal, too many of the vaccinated began doing whatever they wanted? Like attending baseball games with big crowds and having social gatherings. Even though I am fully vaccinated, I have not done that. Maybe it’s because I prefer to be cautious. I don’t think holding such large gatherings like former President Obama is for his 60th Birthday party at his $12 million estate at Martha’s Vineyard, is smart. I could care less if all 600 plus guests are vaccinated. It’s risky and lacks good judgment and common sense. Ditto for Trump last year which resulted in positives due to total ignorance. He even got the deadly virus, but recovered thanks to the experimental drugs they gave him. That probably cost him reelection. Aside from being unpopular due to being so polarizing, it didn’t help the cause.
Too many people are politicizing this pandemic. I admit at times, I’ve been guilty of it by critiquing the Democratic Party I once supported. Maybe it’s due to the direction they’ve taken on key issues I value. However, you can find fault on both sides. Sorry. But I don’t think forcing everyone to put a needle in their arm is very democratic. Some people have medical conditions that must be taken seriously before deciding if the shot is right for them. Others don’t trust the science due to the side effects. I experienced them after both. Let me just say it wasn’t pleasant. I’m glad I recovered. The difference between myself and people like our Mom is I’ll never tell anyone what to do. It should be a choice. It’s your body. My brother will never get it. He is anti vaccine. That includes the flu shot. That’s his own personal right and choice.
We’ve seen some in the mainstream media referring to this now becoming a virus of the unvaccinated. But if that were true, why are vaccinated people testing positive? That includes politicians and even some of our favorite ballplayers. Gerrit Cole didn’t pitch the other night due to mild symptoms. Jordan Montgomery also has it. Is it due to the Yankees likely going with the Johnson and Johnson jab? Or maybe it’s due to players being around so many other people. I’m going to go with the second logic. It makes perfect sense. That’s why I criticized Obama. They talk about super spreader events. Most of this came from the left. Personally, I don’t like such terms. It’s lazy and an unfair label placing blame on one party. Even if you don’t support Republicans, that’s not why this happened. What ever became of the investigation into how COVID came into existence? Or are they going to let the Republic of China off the hook? Fauci could have knowledge. He’s sure said a lot over the past year and a half. You think he doesn’t have any knowledge?
If we truly are a free country, the government shouldn’t overstep their boundaries. Encouraging people to be vaccinated is fine. However, mandating it is not right. Especially if it costs people jobs. I know nurses who didn’t get the shot that have concerns due to some of their dedicated coworkers being fired. Does that sound fair? These were the heroes of last year being applauded by everyone. So, you can lose an important job where you played a pivotal role in helping save lives because you won’t comply? Is this China or North Korea? I thought this was the United States of America.
Not everyone is comfortable with needles. Like all drugs, the vaccines have side effects. If you ever had the flu, that’s what it feels like for 24 to 48 hours. It’s also not a perfect process. People have died from adverse effects of the shot. That’s the part they don’t want to advertise. But they’ll offer bribes if you get it. Even if survival rates are good, nobody should die from a vaccine that’s been rolled out. Those who have waited also aren’t comfortable getting a shot that isn’t FDA approved. However, it hasn’t stopped the campaign from over commercialization. It’s everywhere. Even as a fully vaxxed person, it’s maddening. I can’t tell you how many times I changed the channel. It isn’t normal to have it everywhere. You’re not going to change minds if they’re made up.
It’s disappointing how ignorant some people are. Twenty years ago a month and seven days later, we were under terrorist attack on September 11th, 2001. The images were horrifying. It was one of the worst days in our country’s history. There was a big difference back then. Following the attacks, people came together. We were a better country. United. Not divided. Now, it’s a sad time when even during a challenging time, so many place the blame around. We shouldn’t be arguing or fighting. It’s uncivilized. If we can’t have a civil conversation over this issue, then we’re doomed as a society.
I sent a long thought out text to my Mom after I hung up on her. I had to because the argument was pointless. There’s no reason to talk over each other. For voices to be raised. Is this really what we’ve become? If it is, I no longer want to live here.
What’s on my mind at such an early time on August 2nd? Outside of the usual battle with insomnia due to anxiety, I’m laying in my bed thinking of how cool music was in the old days.
I’m reminiscing of a chill era when rap and hip hop were totally different due to unique artists who came at you real. There was nothing fake about it. Sometimes, YouTube really is our time capsule Back To The Future. We might not be able to time travel back to the 80’s or 90’s a la Doc Brown and Marty McFly. But just by listening to a classic song, it takes us back.
Perhaps it’s fate that I’d stumble upon a great track from ’92 from Pete Rock and C.L. Smooth. Appropriately titled, “They Reminisce Over You (T.R.O.Y.),” it’s a good example of what made rap so good. Between sampling a Tom Scott cover of “Today” originally by Jefferson Airplane to the wonderful sound of a trumpet, Pete Rock and C.L. Smooth did a tribute to their close friend Troy Dixon who passed away.
Sometimes, artists can draw inspiration from listening to something. Even during sad times, they are capable of doing something great to pay their respects to a close personal friend who is gone. I’ve always been preferential to R.E.M. doing the tribute song, “Let Me In,” for close Michael Stipe friend Kurt Cobain. It holds a special place in my heart on the Monster album that came out in the autumn of ’94. Pretty cool stuff.
I feel similar vibes here with both Rock and Smooth expressing their thoughts through memories of childhood upbringing and of Dixon. Someone who believed in both when not many did. A worthy tribute song that has just the right touch. The base is hard and works well with the trumpet as if almost a salute to their fallen friend. You can feel the words. Each lyric significant. A song of style and substance.
Speaking of old school, I found some old Ice-T tracks before he was a big actor who went from the rap game to starring in New Jack City and of course Law and Order SVU as our favorite NYPD detective Tutuola. I’m astonished how long that show has lasted. He’s still right there behind Mariska Hargitay as Benson for the longest recurring character on NBC’s most successful show in prime time.
You can always rediscover the music many of us grew up on. It was a more hard hitting era without the bullshit. Find me a rapper with the bluntness of Tupac. He was as real as it got. Anyone who knows me knows he’s my all-time favorite MC. There are better ones like Rakim, Big Daddy Kane, Eric B, etc. I identify with 2Pac. I love how hard he was. He didn’t duck anyone or anything. Of course, you have to include Biggie as well from that era. It’s ironic how both wound up shot and killed less than a year apart. We’ll never know the truth. They don’t care.
I’m glad we still have their music. I’ve often said, Legends Never Die. It’s because they don’t. Legends Are Forever. We can only hope to create an everlasting memory one day. Like 2Pac said, “Holler If Ya Hear Me.”
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